So I missed a little time since my last update, but I promised to stick with this blog, so here we go.
My struggles with my weight and the similar struggles with food have always been difficult. I don’t really ever remember a time where I wasn’t concerned about what I was eating or what I weighed (or what I looked like to others).
Over the last 2 years as I threw myself fully into a quest for health and weight loss, I came to learn so much about nutrition, fitness, and myself. I KNOW the right things to eat, I KNOW the right things to do, or at least I do in theory.
The last 6 months have been incredibly difficult. I have lost, regained and struggled over the same 10 pounds. It is a cycle that I cannot seem to break. It is infuriating to me that I am still in this pattern.
I developed a habit, after I began this journey, of weighing myself every morning, no matter what. I felt in control this way. I turned to the scale for validation. In my mind, I justified this by thinking that it would be easier to track overall weekly averages than just 1 weekly weigh in. My obsessive compulsive, anal-neurotic tendencies took over.
Today is Thursday Jan. 26th, 2012. This morning I turned over my scale to a trusted friend. I will not weigh myself for the next 7 days.
I began to notice that even if I had a great day of healthy eating and awesome workouts, if the number on the scale the next morning was not what I wanted to see, I would let it ruin my mood, my motivation and I would be ready to quit. So, in an effort to break the chain holding me to my scale, it was surrendered for the greater good. I am going to take the next 7 days to focus on healthy eating, healthy moving, and a healthy mind.
Sometimes I become so focused on where I want to be, that I forget how far I have come. I get bogged down in tiny numbers week to week, losing sight of the big picture. I am more than halfway to my goal and I tend to brush that off as not important enough since I’m not at my goal yet.
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